Just Ride

So wednesday I had a really great lesson. It definitely didn't start out that way. I was frustrated, and really I have been frustrated for a while, just wasn't really admitting it to myself. But I finally got to talking about it with my awesome coach, and realized that I just haven't been feeling like jumping cause it was and still is really disappointing that I didn't get a chance to get into the Jumpers with Belle.

I think sometimes I feel like I have to be positive all the time. But I think I fall into the trap of denying how I'm actually feeling, and then it nags at me and decides to pop up in ways like me just not riding like I usually do. So I wasn't doing myself any favours. Sure I am genuinely looking forward to training Belle up some higher levels in Dressage, but I just needed to admit that it really, really, really sucked not being able to do the jumpers with her.

All that hard work and we were so, so close and it all fell through. We definitely would've made an awesome team, and who knows, maybe one day we will make it together!

All that to say though, once I admitted it, talked about it a little, I could finally get back to riding, really riding! And hey, jumping was fun all over again! A course of jumps? Easy peasy! When just a few minutes earlier I couldn't go from jump a to jump b in a line. My coach reminded me that sometimes you just have to let go and ride.

Did I ever mention I much riding helps with everything else in life?

There have been lots of positive from this experience though. I can wrap really, really well now, I feel a lot more confident riding different horses, and have become an even stronger rider! And hey, I get to show off how gorgeous and awesome my horse is in dressage.