Rambles

Ever feel like you have one foot chained to a peg and you keep going around in circles?  Yep, that's my life.  Though it's been a tighter circle for the past few months.  Belle gets better, ride for about a week, Belle gets hurt.

Repeat.

At least I'm not crying anymore.

But it made me realize, all the times I've prayed desperately for her to get better (and now with the added: stay better), that I wanted her better on my terms.  When I wanted her better.  But that's not really how it works.  So, rather sheepishly, I admitted recently that what I need is the patience to wait for her to get better on His terms.

However I have this habit smetimes.  Where instead of actually being patient I'm like: Okay I've figured it out... Can I have what I've been asking for now please?

Apparently it's a lesson I still have to learn.

I also have a bad habit of asking for things and then doing nothing to make them happen.  And then complain when nothing happens (like dating).  It's really hard to meet peple and go on dates when I never actually go anywhere or do anything.  Or when the people I love to hang out with are either married or in a relationship.

One of these days I'll figure out that I should hang out with the singles if I want my relationship status on facebook to ever change.


So recently I've decided to make an extra effort and change my hermit-like tendencies and actually be social.  And last week I actually remembered to bring food to a potluck.  I felt accomplished!