The List!

While watching a movie with my brother and sister in law a few weeks ago, my sister in law looked at me and was like: Oh you so know you have a list!  And I laughed and nodded my head.

The list of course being what I want in a guy.

But the thing is, my list has gotten smaller and smaller over the years.   Yes I used to have the whole must be tall, muscular, into horses, blah, blah blah, blah blah...

Yeaaaaah.

Now my list is this:

1. Has to understand me.
2. Be a good listener.
3. Want to be married in the Temple.

Cause really that's all that matters to me.  Everything else is so not needed to find that guy that I'll want to spend eternity with.  But what does matter to me is that he'll love me for who I am without trying to change me.  And is willing to listen, and I mean really listen.  (Since my last ranty post I think you know how I feel about not being listened too....)

Every so often I still worry about the trivial. What can I say?  There are physical qualities that I'm attracted to.  Oddly enough I've discovered I really like hands.  I first noticed this while watching Prince of Persia.  Jake Gyllenhaal has really nice hands.

 Moving on.

I also worry if whoever that guy will be will be able to keep up with me... Then realized that whoever it is will have to because I ain't slowing down.

But what I really agonize over are the two things on my list.  Sometimes I even get mini panic attacks over them.  What if they try to change me?  Is my biggest fear.  But, even though sometimes I get stuck with a jerk for a little bit of time.  I've always gotten to that heck no point and put an end to harmful relationships before they got really bad.

However, those bad relationships have left me hesitant.  They all started out well enough, but really looking back at them.  They never were good.  It just took me a while to remember what my first impression of them were, and realize that hey, it was right.

I also really just need to remember to trust that whoever God will put into my life will be good for me.  I need to trust His judgment cause I know mine can be led astray.

I know that the guy I'll go to the Temple with will be a great guy.  We'll have a great relationship, we'll have fun and hey, we'll be in love.  This I know.  Cause I'm not settling for anything less.